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Chapter 91
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Everyone was waiting for the bride to arrive in her showstopper wedding dress but there was no sign of her. KB kept on checking his watch till he loosened his tie and go look for her. He found her dress still sealed on her bed and the heels."Tamara!Tamara!"he called out and asking everyone if they haven't seen her. He thought of the bathroom and he pushed every door. He saw her toiletries and her gown hanging on the back of the door. He saw drops of blood on the floor."No!no!"he exclaimed seeing the bath full of water and her hand hanging outside lifeless. He ran to the bath and carried her out. He did the mouth to mouth to suck the water. He sucked her nose and her blood filled his mouth. He spat out and did it again. "Come on baby!Please!Don't die Tamara!" he begged hitting her cheek gently. Unfortunately she did not respond after he tried to do the CPR few times. He leaned on the bath and put her head on his lap."What am I going to say to the children? What have you done?Why commit suicide? "he asked with his eyes full of tears. His tears were falling on Tamara's dry face as the blood continued to come out of her nostrils. He wiped the blood with his handkerchief." I am to blame for all this..if only I could have appealed your sentence. We wouldn't be here..with you dead.."He was interrupted by her coughing out the water that has been blocking her."You are not dead!"he exclaimed holding her tightly. She slightly smiled feeling all exhausted. The paramedics took her to the prison hospital where she slept for hours under suicidal watch. The wedding was spoiled just like that. KB took the children back to Mama Angela and he spinned a story they believed. They enjoyed the carrot cake while KB changed his bloody clothes. "Sir I am sorry with everything that has happened to madam" she said busy folding the towels. KB buttoned his shirt quietly. He grabbed his car keys to leave the house. He drove straight to the club and sat before the bar. He told the barman to keep them coming. "Have you seen Star?" he asked while whispering to the barman. He kept on wiping the glasses. "Sky,she is upstairs with a client" he whispered back. He nodded his head slowly and drank his whisky. Sky is his code. He wanted someone to go with him to the gambling tables. He needed some luck of a woman next to him."Oh Sky Sky "said Maroon touching his neck. He tilt his head slowly and saw her cleavage right on his face. He turned back to his glass of whisky and she took out a belt and put it around his neck." Do you wanna play?"she asked and hit him with a hot smooch. He wiped the lipstick on his mouth with his hand. "No!I just want to f*ck but no you!" he said removing the belt on his neck. He went to the gambling tables and he pulled a chair to sit down. He loved playing poker. He was a poker addict but he couldn't see that. He has been gambling for months but tonight he joined the crew. His mates cheered and clapped when they saw him taking off his jacket and folding his sleeves. Romeo was sitting outside with Pruedence on a rock looking at the street lights. At this time of the night the suburb becomes all quiet what you hear is dogs barking. "I don't buy this story that she tripped and fell in the bath. She likes abandoning us. She is a disappointer" he said with his hands in his pocket. Prudence cleared her throat "Have you ever sat down for a minute and thought about the hell she has been through? She lost the love of her life she was not given a chance to mourn but she was thrown to jail. She almost lost Naomi..she is my heroine..she didn't run away she toughned up and faced her problems head..she is not a quitter" she said. Romeo clapped his hands for her."Wow!What a speech!You don't know her. You've just read about her on the papers..."She cuts in "She has her own flaws.. No one is perfect in this world..neither are you!Surely you have done some things and you want the world to forgive and stop judging you based on that..right now that's pride speaking" she said and stood up to go back to the yard. They had another trigonometry session but she went to her room to sleep. Mama Angela smiled when she saw all that from the window. A car stopped in front of Romeo it was Salome she got off and sat next to him."You are ignoring my calls and my texts, why?"she asked. Romeo took out his cigarette and lit it. He smoked it quietly."I am no longer enjoying the sex so I am looking for fresh meat"he said smoking on her face. She slapped him with a hot slap unexpectedly. The cigarette fell from his mouth. "You pig!" she exclaimed standing up from the rock. He laughed while rubbing his cheek. "But you love this pig, isn't it?" he asked pulling her hand back to him. He touched her breasts "right?Are you pregnant?" he asked. She loved Romeo and she couldn't help it but smile. He flicked her weave."I am joking.. I am back in school when I have time I am all yours,right "he said and locked lips with her. She stepped into her car and drove back to the lonely mansion. She had no one and Judy was growing up she will be turning 4 in few months. She found her sleeping." You are all I have my angel"she whispered and kissed her cheek. She was so cute. The doctors had to suck out all the drugs in her system and run some few tests to check what damage have they done to her system. She was even failing to hold up a spoon and feed herself. She gave up and pushed the table from her. KB was leaning on the door frame starring at her."I can help you with that"he said walking in and taking the table. She folded her hands. "I am not a baby!I'll manage!" she said. He placed the food away and went to close the door."How can you be so stupid and try to kill yourself? Are you okay in your mind?Did you stop and think about your children? Me?You are self centred! "he shouted. She grabbed him with his jacket." I am not that stupid to take the easy way out! Yes I think about my children every minute of the day! I have regrets too of the things I have done. If only I had not done them I wouldn't be stuck here in this Hell hole with HIV in my system! I could have made wiser choices! Now its your time to make your wise choice and walk out that door and never look back Kabaso Bwalya!"she said with her teeth against each other. He smiled and loosened his jacket. He grabbed her hand tightly."What happened in the bathroom? "he asked looking at her with the red eyes of catching no sleep. He was inflicting so much pain on her hand.Teardrop! She sighed " I was high and I fell asleep in the bath..I am sorry"she said with a shaking voice. She made a promise to KB that she will never touch drugs. He looked down disappointed and he sighed deeply."Who has been giving you the drugs?"he asked calmly. She kept quiet and stretched her painful hand."I am not going to repeat myself "he said. Her eyes were moving like those of a rat...I.. Em nurse!nurse!" Kabaso quickly put his hand on her mouth. She tried to even scream with his hand on her mouth. "Tamara!stop being childish! I'll remove my hand and if you scream again we both don't know what's going to happen" he threatened her. He removed it slowly. "You can't bully me into talking about my supplier" she said upset and giving a face. He touched her cheek gently and she removed the hand. He placed it again till he saw a slight smile on her face."Do you pinkie promise that you gonna stay away from drugs?"he asked with his pinkie finger and she pinkie promised to never touch them again."Nothing is going to take me away from you not even drugs nor your children nor you being HIV positive. You are my junkie..those children are my choir and the disease has just joined the choir too. We will not entertain it but it is welcome to stay with us ok"he said and tickled her a bit. She laughed in the midst of her tears."Stop it!Choir director! "she said and kissed him. He took the plate and put the cereal in his mouth." Let me feed you from my mouth"he said with food in his mouth. She looked away and he turned her face. "Its called mouth to mouth feeding let's try it" he said locking lips with her. All the food went from his mouth to her mouth. He didn't remove his mouth for her to chew."Hey the food will choke me"she said pulling him by the jacket. She saw the lipstick on his shoulder and he turned to see it."And who are you f*cking? Kabelo Bwalya!"she asked pointing at the lipstick mark. He took a deep breath "No one!I can explain please!Its just.." She threw a pillow at him."Damn!I am not stupid! "He ducked it and picked it up going back to her." Go bath!I can smell the tin fish from here"she said turning to face the other direction. He laughed and shook his head. He grabbed his keys and cellphone. He kissed her cheek gently from behind and she touched his cheek."Please tell her to stay away from you because I'll haunt and peel off her skin. Go"she said with her eyes closed. He whispered few words in her ear and she burst in laughter."Mission accomplished my lady"he said kissing her a few times on her face. He walked out and she waved goodbye to him and she lied down to sleep. She closed her eyes a bit."I heard you almost committed suicide and I decided to come and see how horrible you are!"said Salome walking in with a bright smile. She rose up from the bed."you are not so bad yourself after being f*cked by a Ben 5!Oops Romeo told me am sorry!"she said and laughed. She sat down and pretended to not have heard that. "Whatever the boy is mine!You look thirsty yourself!" she said. Tamara reached for the bowl of cereal and poured it on her weave. She jumped off the bed "This is prison I will kill you" she said grabbing her. She began to move her eyes like of a watch running out of batteries."Ladies! Tamara please!"said warrant officer Ndlovu getting in between of them. He pulled Tamara away who was not moved. "You are lucky that the officer came in to rescue you I could have shown you flames" said Salome clicking her tongue. She fixed herself and walked out with cereal all over her."Why did you restraint me?I wanted to teach her a lesson! "she said breathing heavily. Ndlovu helped her to get back to the bed breathing heavily and exhausted." She is not worth it!The law will deal with her"he said fixing her pillows. She sighed, "I will take your deal,Ndlovu but I have few conditions" she said. The smile on his face when he jumped to hug her."I think the handshake could have been nice "she said stretching out her hand. They shook hands wedding dresses for busty brides
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SILENTLY I CRY
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Chapter 92
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Things got worse for Tamara she lost her sanity. She was seeing things that were not there and saying things that were not of sense. KB went to court and pleaded that she was must be taken out by medical parole. The medical parole was successful and she has been home for two weeks but she is still the same. She was sitting on her bed with her pyjamas and the psychologist sitting on her chair with a book in her hands. She has been trying to get her to talk about her feelings for the past two weeks but she just sits and bites her nails with her eyes popped out. Sometimes she just scratches her head. "You seem sad this morning" she said. She looked at her and clicked her tongue."What do you want to talk about today Tamara?"she asked with a smile and touching her hand. She moved her hand "You are hurting me!" she shouted. She kept her hands to herself and jotted something in her book."I am not the first person to hurt you and I am sure it makes you angry that you want to wring my neck..hit me with the chain to death.."she kept on scratching her hair "Shh! Shh!They will hear us and I don't want to go prison!" she said putting her hand on her mouth and looking around to see if anyone has been or heard them. She removed the hand gently and placed her back down on the chair. "I won't tell a soul I promise you" she whispered. She smiled she was beginning to trust her because she didn't trust anyone she thought everyone is planning to hurt her. She took out a few pics out of her bag."Do you want us to talk about a sad story or a happy story? "she asked going through the pics. She kept quiet and stared outside." Do you recognise this person on the pic?"she asked giving it to her. It was Mash's pic. She looked at it and began to shake. Tears and mucus fell onto the pic."Did she send you? Are you working with her?"she asked all worked up. She stood up and grabbed the psychologist by her throat and strangled her."You demon! "she yelled while strangling her. KB ran in hearing her shouting and he removed her from the psychologist. She coughed and caught her breath. KB made sure if she is okay and stepped out of the room with her. He locked the room." Hey! I am not your prisoner!"she said banging the door and screaming. KB sat down with the psychologist to update him with her condition. "We are making progress but she is still afraid" she said very calm with a smile. She touched his hand and stood up to show herself out. Tamara searched all the drawers for scissor and cut Mash's pic to pieces. She stepped on the pieces with her legs and she even spat on them. She sat down on the bed and reached for the scissors with a smile. She began to cut herself on her hand and sucking her own blood with her mouth. She heard the door opening she quickly put the scissor underneath the pillow. She has cut her hand vein so the blood was coming fast and a lot. She wiped her mouth with the sleeve of her gown. KB walked in and sat before her. He touched her hair and kissed her forehead. "I want to sleep get out" she said and he sat down wondering what is she hiding behind her. He looked at the torn pieces of the pic."okay but can you please borrow me the scissor you were using to cut those pieces"he said. She rolled her eyes "No!I don't want to!" she said with her eyes popped out. He saw blood flowing down on the bed and he pulled her and her blood poured on his face like a running tap."You did not Tamara!Why? "he asked taking the bloody scissor. Behind her there was a pool of blood. He came with the first aid kid to at least tie the wound and stop the bleeding while waiting for the doctor. He tied her silently with the instruction of the doctor who was driving to their house." I am sorry ok I am sorry!Do you forgive me?"she asked gently touching his beard. He dropped his face and silently packed the first aid kid after taking the handgloves. He silently stood up from where he was kneeling and went to put back the kit."Please!you have to forgive me!"she said kneeling before him and holding both his legs. He helped her to get up and hugged her."I forgive you "he said looking up trying to block the tears in his eyes. He carried her to the bed and the doctor walked in to check her. She gave her sleeping tablets for her to sleep she hasn't been sleeping for weeks. She hasn't been taking the sleeping tablets prescribed by her psychologist. She has been throwing them away. She fell into a deep sleep and KB mopped the blood on the floor. Mama Angela changed the beddings and he carried her back to the bed. She was losing weight daily." Sir its not that I am forward but haven't you considered taking madam to a traditional healer?"she asked with the utmost respect. KB took her by hand to the passage."Do you think she is bewitched? "he whispered looking around to see if no one is hearing them." Maybe but it can also be the ancestors "she said looking at his curious face. He has been taking Mama Angela's advises ever since they met. They all loved the stories she told them about Lilanda. She made a fresh pot of tea with biscuits and she sat down with him and told more about traditional healers who can help Tamara. KB was taking turns with Mama Angela with Naomi who is a whistle since her mother stepped in this house. She cries her eyes out." Why is the other room always locked? "asked Lu while having dinner. KB was chocked by his food and Romeo turned to look at him to explain why is he hiding her from her kids." Yeah and its only you daddy who steps in there "added LukundoLove with his mouth full of food. Prudence put her hand on his mouth " Aw!"she exclaimed. He swallowed and waited for their answer."I can't tell you because its a surprise "he said with his front teeth out. They jumped with joy. How they love surprises! They ran to hug him. Romeo shook his head disappointed. It was his time to be honest. He slept with Naomi on his chest sitting on top of a rocking chair. He didn't even hear the kids leave for school. Romeo is the one who drives them to school after Mama Angela has done preparing them and after breakfast. The noise in the house every morning was priceless. The running and dancing around poor Mama Angela had to keep up. She loved the little mouses. Tamara woke up to open the Windows and stared outside at the beautiful garden. She felt a lot better and more calm. She opened the door and found that it is not locked. She stepped out and looked around the quiet house. She walked into Naomi's room and saw how cute they were. She took out her phone and captured the pic. She quickly posted it on her Facebook Account. !Things are more clearer for her today. She was able to remember she has kids and KB is her fiancé looking at the ring on her hand but there was still a long way for her to go. She tip toed and took the baby from his hands. He didn't hear a thing. She sneaked out with her to her bedroom."I missed you "she said kissing her cheek. She slowly opened her eyes and grabbed her gown tightly." Wow!you missed mommy"she said placing her down to look for a bigger T-shirt to kangaroo her. She cried. "I am not leaving you, Nana!" she said changing. That's when Mama Angela walked in with a feather duster in her hands."you are not supposed to be with Naomi you are not well "she said putting the duster down to take her. Tamara snatched her and soothed her back and she kept quiet." Says who?I am the mother of Naomi! I carried her for 7 months and I stayed with her for 2 months in hospital! Where were you? Who are you to tell me what to do in my house?You are just a maid here unless Sir has lied to you! Stay away from me if you still want to keep your job!"she said showing her door. Disappointed she left she never thought she can be so mean. She rocked her beautiful girl in her hands."Aunty wants to make mommy angry and I am in a good mood"she said. She went to her room and found KB gone he was preparing for his meeting bathing in the bathroom. She sat down on the rocking chair. "Hey I've always wanted to talk to you..I want to apologise for being away when you needed me..I am sorry..you are the apple of my eye and I wont harm you.. You, Lu and LukundoLove you are the reason I wake up every morning.. I love you so much.. Daddy KB has done a great job..he gave you a home..he played mommy and daddy to you.. He will forever be my warrior and a hero to you.. And ..I think I can disclose my status to you.." she paused and looked at the teethless smile of Naomi while the saliva fell on her."I am HIV positive my princess..I am not dying "she said and Naomi didn't understand but she heard her. She touched her hand with saliva and grabbed her with the other hand trying to stand up. She put her on her back and put water in a tub to bath her. She undressed her and put her in a tub full of water. She turned to fetch the soap and the baby slipped and the water covered her tiny body. She kept on looking for few minutes while she was doing bubbles underneath the water with her tiny hand holding the tub on the side. KB saw it and dropped his bag,cellphone and car keys on the floor." Naomi! Nana!"he called out as the tiny hand of Nana fell into the tub
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To Be Continued